im alone ):

today was totally alone..
most of my frens didnt come..
some is in holiday ady..
some working..
yeah, nowadays my frens all used to work during holidays..
proven its money crisis among us

went to scul as normal..
sitting in canteen alone !
huuuu.. pity me.. bored like hell..
then went to chemistry lab ( our class for that day )
bored again...
michelle not here..
having chinese exam...
just chat with elaine..
she's the only one there
then i finished up my folio..
passed up finally..
but its too late.. really really late
get bm and maths paper..
bm was totally out..
shit !!
after recess, michelle is back.
but then hilang again.
in class ntg to do..bored like hell
"si michelle entah pergi mana"
and today get some of the text book d..
main pilih punya..
tak cantik tak ambil ..hahahha
get new novel, literature all..
nice man !! but kinda thick..
back time, never thought of my mom fetching me..
cos wanna go eat at gma's last time working place ..
not work actually...
and almost quarrel with mom..
our problems never solved for now..
aduii...

p/s : work soon... no time for online.. chiaoss..
and i really cnt wait for my holiday..a lot of place to go.. wheeee

im free...

eeeeeeeeeuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.........................
im free now..
lets scream out loud....
but this time seems nothing..
not that happy though..
dunno why..
but yet still having fun today v siao cha bo, BENAZIR..

today was the last day of exam,
having paper 3 of chemistry and physics..
yeah, a bit nervous..
cos i havent read..
i read it last night, but in a sleepy condition..
nothing go in my mind..
so early in morning i start reading my physics..
stupid teacher, go have assembly today..
zho my si gan...
anyway, i still do my own business at the back..
luckily din get caught..
went back class continue reading..

physics time..
thank god,
everything came out as the tips i get..
at least make me answer it smoothly..
i dnw to crack my head anymore..
after finish answering still got time left..
first time dey,
sc paper got time left for me ..
whee... but answer dunno correct or not..
hope it can help me get from fail to pass..
at least something..
no hope in phy and chem especially..
shit..

rescess time continue study until chemistry paper start..
as the same, read according to tips..
no time to turn to other page ady..
this time is last second i think
lols...
thank god again,
chem questions came out as what tips we got...
no doubt, start doing as i could merdeka more faster..
yeah.. after 50 minutes, i done it..
unbelievable, i still got more than 30 minutes before the paper is collected..
break record?? anyway, still crap whatever i have,,
hoping i could drag my chemistry mark too..
paper 1 and 2 was too bad, toooo bad....

end chapter... im done with it..
and really mou ngan tai ady..
satisfy or not also cant change anything....

and yeah,
before chemistry paper is collected..
maths teacher came in before pn fazlily..
she brought our maths paper
but out class all say dnw get the paper first..
shit, i was curious to know whats my mark..
then i saw the teacher was away from the table...
i was sneaking and peeping the marks..
i saw syahirah's paper..
so i turn to another paper..
fuhhh,,, its my paper..
never thought of that..
and of course i saw my mark..
not that satisfy though..
bt that is what i deserve..
what to do ?? forget bout it....

lets talk bout my agenda after scul..
i stayed back after scul..
shit !! ppl going back enjoy..
i stay back for painting
what to do .. never finish it since .. since .. dunno when...
then me and bena went to giant port klang to see the dedication..
and also the place where she work during this holidays..
start working tomorrow d , gud luck weih...
then walk to paint shop..
cross the road some more one funny thing..
while walking still can talk bout physics...
cos there is something related with it before we crossed the road..
dunno what law ady la..
most probably will be PEI CHIAN'S LAW...
cos actually i really dunno does it exist or i created myself..
stupid gagak mulut... say raining..
its really rain... haixxx (not her wrong, memang rain d..hhahaha)
walk in the rain..
but not that heavy la.. but still can say heavy...hahahaha...
moderate la...
then no choice..have to stop at mcd..
went for lunch while waiting rain to stop..
*bla bla bla bla bla*
ah soh convo..
talk a lot, gossip a lot... * who sneeze today ??*
then went back to scul by bus..
fuhhh, in the bus my heart was nearly fall out..
the thinner nearly fall on bus...
luckily im fast enough to catch it..
if the thinner fall and nothing happen then its okay
if it broke , then im in trouble..
then we reached school..
planned to start our work
but see see , the brushes all get harden
then we try to soft it by dissolve it on "organic solvent [by, bena]"
btw, thinner is organic solvent ??
never work efficiently..
still 'yat kao yat kao'
do till fed up..
end up we both leave it immersed in it
and we both chatting
as some of them that suppose to stay never stay also
some busy, some go tuition...
its okay la...
then we loiter around the basketball court and laman ilmu..
panjat tiang be monyet , as bena said...
yet, time flies...
its 5.30 .. so we both went back...
btw, what time u went back bena ???

went to pasar malam today
after i stop for almost 2 months..
got that long?? or longer??
buy food the most..
cos really free d
didnt care what i eat..
after exam ma...hahaha
and got ppl treat also...
so no need care so much ady...
went home talked with my aunt...
random chatting between us (and sis)
then talked about something that can make me earn money..
yet, sure got rugi la...
depends lo..
another way to earn money..
but its risky.. still thinking of doing it or not...
most probably will be a yes..
hehehehehe...

flashing back..

time to flash back..
start from 13 oct.
i stopped facebook and using phone
kononnya wanna stop till nov..
but facebook can say i played everyday..
phone ?? going to start now..
was thinking using phone not good for brain
but i din answer call .. can effect??
kadavale.. nonsense common sense

tik tok tik tok...
time to study.. but for sure procrastinating happens
saturday oni start studying..
start v sej and maths if im not mistaken..
memorise imperialisme like hell..
then start maths..
but relax is more than study.. thats for sure..
sunday study bm...

time for exam..
monday start with bm subject..
everything is okay la.. normal oni..

tuesday was english..
recess time talk bout paper one which is after exam
got leak dey..
run here for isi run there for discussion...

wed was maths..
was ok also..
dont quite rmb what happen ady..
but preparation was not that enough la..
in the middle was pjk paper..
ish ish ish.. kacau oni...
but around 20 minutes all head lying on desk ady..
then maths teacher came in..
that time was her time according to normal time table..
she never collect the paper
and that time was form 5 students having audition for performances
on their graduation day..
woots... gonna graduate lur...
then we all was like peeping out straight to the dataran
some of them , include me moved from our place to a place
where we can watch the performances..
some even went to a group d..
*dey, paper belum kutip la* kadavale...
teacher was standing outside the class
once she turn, she was shocked with what we had done..
we was laughing that time also...
then all back to their place..
but after awhile papers are collected...

time for history..
study according to tips also..
other than that was just sekilas oni..
chap 6 i didnt touched at all as paper 2 dont have questions on that chap..
then i die in paper one lo.. chap 6 got quite a lot of questions..
all also luan luan tiang lo...
paper 2 was not that okay also..
memorise all the thing.. but still ... forget..
the same, middle of both papers was sivik..
bm teacher that time...
luckily she collected the paper earlier..
got time to study.. yay!!
but still not okay lo...

last paper of the week was moral..
one paper oni.. got time to relax..
better la...
and, even moral also got tips..
but, useless for me..
studied, but forget...
drink chicken essence ..
but no changes also...
sumore very pai lim... yukkss

saturday study bio.. but on others more than books..
and i watched astro battleground 2010..
i waited so long..
finally .. yay!
but seems like not that good compare to last year..
maybe cos my last year fav's teams not there..
one of my fav's dancer participate also..
but out d..
ishhh... ECX pun not ther..
not fun lo...

sunday was doing add maths..
not finish revise also..
especially differentiation..
i dun know one of them also..
watched fire ball (thailand movie)
quite nice.. qi kek lo..
but it shud me "blood ball"
goal is their main thing to win..
before that, they beat ppl , with weapons sumore
just to get the ball..
see.. 1 hour + is taken for movie d..

exam time...
shit gah mai shit..
quite tough for me..
differentiation questions also quite a lot..
DIE !!
no hope.. waiting to die..
good job pc...
dont think too much d..
just concentrate my bio now...
yes, we get tips
yet we dunno which one coming out
as teacher change a few question in essay questions..
but still read according to the tips..
and here , nightmare start..
going back with the hope to study
end up v lepak-ing , facebook and sleep..
open book ady can sleep
book is my best an mian yao ever.
i slept and continue my studies after i wake up
but its night ady..
so read till the next morning..
ppl sleeping.. n im awake..
who ask me lazy..
but last minute was my study style...

its tuesday now..
bio time..
bio 2 first...
saw the questions..
and yes, teacher really change it..
she said she change to easier essay
so we can answer..
change no chg same nia..
i still cnt answer..
still the same, preparation not enuf..
ok.. close file...
before bio paper one..
still got around one hour + for me to study
din go for recess just to save time..
so i can study
cos, other than tips given in paper 2
the rest i didnt touch also
sit beside the drain in front our class
study together v MICHELLE
luckily what we study that time come out
quite a lot of questions we discussed..
most of it came out..
happy a bit la..
but still others , kantoi...
going back.. rest rest..
same, study at night...
preparing for bio paper 3.
study according to tips..
memorise all the thing like hell....

wed...
morning got a lil bit time to study..
same, discussing v michelle
still got a lil bit time to gossip..
i tell her mines
she tell me hers..
hahaha......
exam starts...
go through the paper with hope..
but all just destroyed..
all not related with what tips we get..
we never know teacher will change paper 3 question...
this time really shit..
design exp. is designing bout the content of vitamin C
regretted i never listen properly to what teacher teach that time..
oni a lil bit thing i rmb..
so i start crapping..
after paper is collected,
quickly rush out to check..
all gone..
i mix up all the thing..
get egg terus.....
moody...........
this time i went to canteen when recess time..
didnt go recess for a few days d..
cos my frens will talk there ( 3 rk's student )
miss my frens eh..
since after that we dont have paper..
we enjoyed ther
a lot of noise ia made..
and a story popped out from JENNIFER
about she getting hint that vit.C will came out..
first , the day before bio paper 3 exam
she opened her book and she got the page of vit.C content experiment report
she even say "you will not be coming out"
so she turned to photosynthesis chap.. ( tips for bio paper 3 )
2nd, her book fall off..she take it and opened it..
still the same, she got that vit.C content 's page
she turned again to photosynthesis part
3rd, the next morning.. she was in scul..
she opened her book.. she get the same page as previously part..
again she turned...
gosh,, 3 times.. but she never touch it...
so she wrote crap on it also..
then her sister , MS JULIANA make a conclusion..
she said that this is a situation same with a story (i dunno whats story is that)

a ppl in a flooded place..
a boat passed by and offering a ride..
that man says , "nvm, my god will safe me"
then a helicopter passed by offering him a ride
that man tells them "nvm, my god will safe me"
then a raft passed by offering him a ride
that man says " nvm, my god will safe me"
after all.. that man asking the god..
"why U didnt safe me??"
god replied: i sent 3 rides to safe u..
but u didnt accept the offer...

(that story was something like this)
means, 3 time hint is given, but my fren says nvm, u wont be coming out..
tips i get will be coming out..
finally, none of them coming out...

actually that morning, i did got some hint of this ques coming out..
cos, as i was finding the page of what will be coming out..
i stopped at the vit.C report 's page because i need to answer my fren's question..
suddenly my fren says, weih,dun tell me this come out..
i replied : NO LAH... this NO LAH kill me... shitt..

another thing.. by my fren MOH FEN..
a lots of ppl was confused on the type of fruit used in the experiment..
image was not clear enuf
some say orange, some say apple, smoe say guava, some say honeydew..
bt my lovely fren,MOH FEN says its MILK WATERMELON as its tembikai susu..
laugh die us..

k la.. close chapter..


time for english period..
our oral (postponed from early oct till now) need to be done by today..
start v sheryn and chiew peng..
whao..those are excellent students..
they talked bout MANGLISH..
which we are using nowadays..
mulut ternganga see them having convo..
pro man.. expression semua ada...
thumb up..they deserved full marks..
time for me and MICHELLE..
everything was okay, and we got full marks..
thank god.. bt teacher was not that strict though..

went back.. time to study PHYSICS..
slept before i went to dancing class..
shit..no one there..
they say class was canceled..
hell, no one tell me..
bai zou yi tang..
almost one hour fly..
start studying phy after i back..
study with yawning sumore.. lol
until morning, my grandma wake up..
i requested her to make me a coffee..
so she make the cappuccino for me..
i drink it..
as it drinking, my gma talk a lot bout coffee..
bla bla bla.. i feel a bit annoyed that time.. i know im bad..
sorry gma...

physics time..
preparation really really not enuf..
40 % tak sampai.. die gah cham cham..
more worse is my stomach pain..
like berkisar like that.. maybe cos i drink it with empty stomach
then feel dizzy..shit.. sure cos contain caffeine..
my brain gone.. dizzy sumore cant exam...
time for paper one..
still the same..die..
tembak the most..
more worse is i tembak without see which questions..
no time ady..
what comes in my mind just blacken the answer...

who die who alive i dun know..
the one i know is i tembak sendiri oni...

back home still lenggang kankung..
lepak, and fb...
then sleep...
midnight study...
until morning..
raining sumore...
so nice for me to sleep...


chemistry..
as the same..
crap a lot...
tembak a lot...
arghhhh...
sumore get scolded by teacher ( nt scold act )
moody.....

feels a bit relief.. as i just left 2 papers..
wheee ... exam gonna finish..
feel like to give up my both paper 3 for chem and phy..
since paper 1 and 2 also so shit...


arghhh.. after exam.. and deepavali's holiday.. results coming.. i just cant imagine what marks i get for every subjects.. drop is for sure.. drop class lagi sure.. damn.

EXAM: CLOSED TOPIC

chemistry's penghargaan

yay!! finally i done my chemistry folio..
but , wait..dun happy too fast..
i mean i finished typing part..
need to edit before get printed..
MEANS, I CANT PASS UP TOMORROW..
die..must tell teacher d..
she like din care anything..so its okay for me to talk v her
i kan pelajar baik *perasan*
since there dun have penghargaan
then i put it here
first thanks to nicole la..
reminded me on chemistry folio
that time i really dunno anything
i dont even know got this stupid folio
until she message me and told me..
then got teach me how to do
but still blur that time
after i saw yasini and nicole's folio
the i got SOME idea on it *some ni kay*
then tik tok tik tok..
was time to pass up
i mean deadline is coming
then oni i start rushing and done it
with my slow typing skills sure la i cnt finish
then i asked bena to buy chemistry reference book for me
*hey, i never had one also,until i really need it,then i must buy*
then me and bena "jiao yi"
she do some i do some..
but seems she do more than me..
cos i did synthetic polymers and ceramic for her
and she sent me alloys, ammonia and composite materials..
thanks bena..
then time for michelle
she sent introduction to me..
first i dont even know intro needed..
front page also she did for me
and print also she going to do for me..
thanks a lot yj..

holy..
i havent done my sej..
sorry class

got cls tomorrow..
play hard i wont slp in bio cls again..
god..help me

and,i havent memorise my oral
die again
having oral tomorrow..
partner with yj..
good luck for her
and happy go lucky for me

and for yesterday thingy..
i posted a lot of things
mad ah me??
no la..
too high?? not also
i dunno what happened
and i really hate stubborn ppl
never learn to obey what ppl said
*but sometime i did too*
and start chat with ****** d...
then today..i posted
that i will stop fb and phone start from wed
means tomorrow last day
can i stand for it??
play hard i can
and good luck for my final..
and good luck for 4A a.k.a mad house also..
all the best..
hope we still in one class next year..
will be missing all mad things and fun things we did the whole year..
love 4A and our lovely pn sartina..
hope we will meet next year
*i mean in the same cls*

what's love ??

im tired of saying NO
ppl just cant understand it
feeling myself like to create problem..
useless ppl
erm.. i HATE guys??
not sure, DEPENDS
ppl pls make sure what type of ppl am i
i wont fight for love
im not that mad kay..
i just cant trust u guys
so,if u dont happy
then just buzz off
im not rude
but i just cant describe my feelings to certain guys
i love my life to be lonely
so,just leave me alone
ppl are too hard to catch my heart

scul time

went to scul happily..
hoping i wont get sleep in bio class
but i really do..
but isn't sleep ..yawn oni
and i passed the letter to teacher d..
hope she will forgive me
I'M SORRY TEACHER

lol,today 2 ppl ffk
canteen time no her
class time no her
apalah..
both of them going to kena
din come never tell me
make me in class like no arah tuju
din go recess also
cos she din come also
even jas,monica also not here
but luckily pn.sartina make jamuan for us
MICHELLE FOONG , u missed it..hahaha
who call u never come
we ate cake ..blueberry flavour ♥
bought by teacher from other teacher
who did it herself
then got float
rootbeer with vanilla ice cream ♥
after eating then went back cls sit alone
pity huh?? lols
after recess went chemistry cls
idk why ,every time chemistry
i sure energetic
why lah i wont be as energetic as this during bio cls??
then bio cls nw go super fast
we had no time to fill the answer also
gonna copy d..
physics also yawning
apa sudah jadi ??
but when the first cls,
i super paying all my attention
cos exam is near.
gosh..... FINAL IS HERE
my deadline ....

random

today start working..
as ?? dunno...hahahaha
lol..raining wey..
means??work in rain
walao..come back i go to the mirror..
lols,like lok tong kai..
48 ugly lo
i sumore work with that zhou ying
walao...
raining,so business mestilah merosot..
manatau itu boss lagi ckp bagus
cos he say dunno what water what what what..idk..haha
then say i lucky ..swt
did a lots of mistake ..i think ??
but really tired..non stop walking..
mana boleh tak tired??
tomorrow still got walkathon.. *whee*
dunno can wake up or not
now ady 4.30 AM..
cos back from work also quite late
lagi need to do sej's notes..
apalah...time no enough..
ishh..
okay,time for bed..
night everyone....
and night to my boring bloggie....

im back =)

blogging again..kinda a month didn't update..is it??
first,let me tell u bout her birthday
first,we thought of doing video for her..manatau,that idea taken..
ish...her cousin problem la..
then end up with just a cake and a ..... *she haven't receive it*
that cake i bought from fruity..not exp not cheap..haha
luckily it was nice..everyone also say it
feel like so bangga *lols,too much* haha
hope so i wont get sick also..
cos i kena hujan this morning..
her cake la..wanna give her surprise ma..
but then she like not surprise enough..*kantoi*
jas them some more didn't go..*busy with accounts folio , pity them..do till no need sleep*
anyway .. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BENAZIR SIM BEE CHANG...

then is guru tingkatan 4A *my class la* ,pn sartina..
today is her birthday as well..we know it this morning
then jenny go call her mom to buy cake..
sadly teacher today puasa..so we ask her to bring back home
she get shock wey when we sing birthday song for her
we sing a few times before they bring the cake in.. *apalah,tak de pakat punya*
after that,need to study pulak..
thought of teacher will skip bm lesson.. ceh..
we also gave her a card as well..
quite nice also,although we did it last minute...
thanks to all 4A's friends

in a week,we bought 3 cakes..
one for bena
one for our teacher pn.sartina
and another one for pn.susy (teacher advisor)

pn.susy birthday was on 29sept..
celebrate at school also..she get surprised also..
and we made her day.. yay !!

yesterday tuition..
something good happen
someone friends back..
congrats...
and something bad happen also..
hell lah...


hey hey..my class now *a.k.a mad house*
nowadays really cant tahan..
everyday our class get mad..siao wan ah??
every single day we got new name for each of us
or something new that really mad and funny..
recently now was about car..
and i dunno which car i belong..
*budak kampung la..tak tahu apa apa*

another thing..
walao,today i experienced it..
i knew who is it already..
and now i know why other people hate her..
cos sampai me pun tak tahan her..
really feel like scolding her..
but cannot la..we must be good girl
must jaga maruah..or not trouble our form teacher again..better not
ishhhh..lost control wey..
see her pun dulan..
*touch wood 100x* *tak berkat scold teacher*
hahahah


wahhh..this few days keep on talking with yj about something
our past especially...hahaha
michelle,we got a lots of similarity..
and thanks for all your opinion..
i pun ada sikit regret cos din take the phone
but past d..apalah,cakap pun tak guna..
but actually,if we come together..dun care apa topic
we also kong beh liao..hahah
yeah la..girls need to talk more than 2 million words a day le..

yay !! holidays again..
lol..but need to go school also..
ishh..not fair..oni science stream need to go
but luckily not all the days..
4 days oni..lol..quite long also..
homework pun never done..
good job la pc..
getting lazier
aiyoyo..apa sudah jadi ??
anyway,i will try to finish it..
all the best..

UB3 is over..

still dead for a month..

a lot of thing happen..
and i UB3 had passed..(hooray)
being so hard during exam time..
main thing is not enuf sleep coz read till late night..
problem is -din rmb what i read although i spent too much of time on it..
so far get a few papers..
marks was totally shit..
why must we every time did wrong in exam??
why we will only know our mistake through exam??
why when we know the mistake we did and in the next exam the same question did not come out,but other else that are more though??
LASTLY, WHY MUST WE HAVING EXAM?????

as the same having a lot of fun time in class
with all the mad mad ppl
now all become more even worser..
i think something went wrong in our brain..

another thing..i miss my phone..
lost dunno when and where..
that bustard really going to get cursed from me..
nothing else to stole..
nonsense..
hope so i have my ss pic soon..
and of course a new phone
dun wan request too much,
but i wish i could get a phone better than the past or the same at it..

recently

from may..
having exam..
iu day..
mural painting..
my birthday..
musical night..
and so on..

exam was ok..luckily i didn't failed this time
cos having open day tomorrow..
gosh..teacher sure say my everything to my mother
and gma is not here..more worst

iu day was a success..
but after iu day was a sad story
pity us,our int. club..

mural painting from 7 to 10 was a nice event 4 us
although we need to spend our 4 days of holidays in hosp
but it is fun..and yet it connect ppl as he says..
yes,but i connect prob 4 me too..
regret i went 4 it 4 a certain reasons

and on the 9th june,
they having a celebration 4 me..
thx teacher 4 the cake..
bena 4 the celebration,
and vev, jasz, monic, wency, soojing, tzeyuan,
calvin, john, choongsern, jianwei, jason, scott who coming also..

thx bena,the first one wish me happy birthday on the night b4,
li jing,hwee chieh, jasdeep(the one who wish me at 12),
kok keong, vendrick, kok wah, yen hui(the one who call me and send me pic msg)
boon chew, layying(the one send me on 5), monica, teck chuan, erin,
triplets, denice , joanne , gavin, sin ying, sebas, shalini, soo jing, ah tze,
hui yee, etc..
and counted wishes they did on facebook..which roughly had 416
thx everyone..

ntg to comment bout musical night..
damn pissed off that time
waste a lot of money..
and the MN was quite . . .

scul reopen..get results and all that..
and a lot of prob still going on..
mood chg every minutes..

all was damn feeling not nice towards A..
but A was SS all the time
doing all things ownself without asking anyone
while B was really behtahan A
doing all kind of stupid thing to get A back to A's life
A's now is slightly change..but its not complete
and C was damn sad for B
doing something which was really STUPID
but B didn't tell C what actually happened
but C could guess it..
btw.. B just did something very wrong
B and D had planned something so that C dunno what really happened
at last,D tells C..
C plan to ask B,but B is not in the mood..
and C was sad and having a mind crowded with problem
seriously if C tells E whats B did,B really will kena
kao kao from E..cos what B did 4 all thing was TOTALLY WRONG
but,hope C could 4gv B and pretending nothing happen..

pls dnt SS over there..u all can,but dnt talk bout me..
i hv been so tired being someone 4 u all..
help u all ,but at last what i get i i got blamed from u all
cant u all just think what u all did to me??
im so fad up..

and..im not purposely to be emo..
is just i have no reasons to laugh or smile..

ntg to say

yeah..someone agree with me..
you deserve it
although i dunno whats going on
but,from my side
i know who you are

trying to act nothings happen
keep on my way
long to go
try to avoid any mistakes
that could make my way lost
anyway,there is still something
the scar wont gone
and, i will remember

flash back..think of what i did the past

all my silliness
hate myself..
in the other way
i am proud of myself
because i went out from the super stupid world
yet,start feeling my self is stepping in the place
and it was stupid world
but as time past,i hope i will remember of what i get the past
something does not good
and should not hold it until now

i am good in acting..hope none realize what i did now..
nothing much to say
because,all make me speechless

1 more month to go
b4 i leave my grdmom..
sad..
bt sumtime feel wanna shift as fast as i could
bt in other hand,i still nid face my mum..lols
ytd,my mom came n brought us home
i tell her bout i chg class thing
she duno at all
i done all the thing myself
without their knowledge..
bla,bla,bla..n i duno they understand o nt
come bek home,bla the same thing 2 my grdmom
then ask her wether can go v mum to PPD
to do my chg class thing o nt
then she replied me
wat for we go if u noe we did not hv chance??
i was angry,then called my mum ask her to go alone
i duno wat her mood that time
bt maybe is quite angry
+ v my answer i gave her
she more angry
then she ask me,what m i gonna say if i meet them,etc etc..
lol..then,wat m i gonna answer her that time??
i feel so irritating n say
then dnt go la..
then she din reply anything..
quiet ny..then i close it..
2dy,my sis came bek
n ask me wether i rude 2wards mom o nt..
i was blur,then she talk bout call thing
then i oni rmb the things happen on phone ytd
then i xplain to her
"im not rude ok..
mom keep quiet after that,what m i gonna to do??
wait her reply me??
o wait my credit to finish??
u think the credit will stop ther??
credit still flow okay..
+ we had ntg to talk d,
since she feel like dnw go
so i close la.."
lol..wat oso wrong
nw oso duno hw
they all say oni..
ntg work..

GRANDMOTHER

i love her so much
bt nw i gonna leave her alone in house
in a quiet place v no children voice n our caring
i still thinking of hw she gonna past her day without us
we been 2gther 4 16 yrs
bt now i gonna leave her
i dnw to hurt her..she is old..
this is causes of my sis that like 2 argue n fight v her ystrdy
obviously we dnt like ppl talk bout us
bt bcz of my sista's fight her back
my grdmom was angry n ask my sis to call my mom
to pick her up
my mom duno wat action should she take
if she come n pick,she sure kena from her mom(my grdmom)
if she din come..she kena juga...
n 2dy,my mom came n talked v my grdmom
that she wanna take us home....
from my place wher i sitting n hv my lunch
i saw an old woman(my grdmom) taking our towels
that had washed n arranged it
we as the grdchild shud do this
bt she done it..
at house,she always care bout us
n help us do this n that
she wake me up,she serve us breakfast n evry meals
she do housework n evrything
our house not like a house without her
if she go 4 holiday,we will felt sux
n uncomfortable,even house oso mess up
im not independent enuf
i still nid her beside me..
b4 i went to hv my bath..
i saw her back walking to the front
my tears drop n whats that appear on my mind is
hw m i gonna live without this woman..
i oso duno hw we live v our fierce mom
n how could she handle us in daily life
due that she still nid 2 work
problems hving here
bt my mom still stand on her decision
that to bring us ther..

problem

form 4 reli create out many problem 4 me..
bt i think it just 4 early of the year
so,just be patient
btw,teacher is doing a survey
of who wanna take acc n drop bio
if many ppl agreed
a new class will be provided..
b4 i dnw bio,phys n chemist
bt since ytd,my look 2wards bio is totally different
i start to love it..
bt it is just starting..
i hvnt go further
in other hand
i hope they drop phys n chem..n add acct
i would be better
bt,if u ask my opinion
i think all the subj are difficult
included BM n BI
which i tot is KACANG b4
lolss..
now is totally not KACANG 4 me..
i cant even write crap on there
btw,i hv to done a eng essay now
n the teacher who will check my work is pn.fazlily
she still sempat to tell us that
WE ARE FORM 4..N I HOPE 2 SEE A WONDERFUL ESSAY
gosh..hw m i gonna handle it..
just try my best..
hope she wont get disappointed..
lols..

feel like wanna go 4 tuition too
bt which centre shud i go??
which centre is better??
hw m i gonna arranged my transport 2 get ther??
n did my mom will let me go??
cz she seriously will mumble me
if i wan get tt money from her
holy..problem huh.?

this evening
a guy reach my home
wearing a sunglasses
i was get shocked
bcz i dnt even noe this guy
he gt down from his motorcycle
n he just quiet
i asked him
who u wanna find??
he just kept quiet..
omg..rude huh??
then i just turn to my computer
n fb-ing
then turned ther again..
n he called my name..
n say u duno me ah??
i was shocked..
n a lot of ques mark in my mind
then i go over again
n i notice his face look familiar
who is uncle DAVID
im not sure,bcz his hairstyle changed
bcum botak..hahaha
then i just open the door
to let him in
i din called him oso
scare wrong person
n gt malu then...
lolss..

3rd day in the class..
hving discipline talk 2dy..
if i noe i sure wont make my bag heavy
bcz of bringing many text books

exactly like pn.fazlily said
we are like floating class
kip on chging class..
go ther go here..
4 ur opinion,
2dy,we din go into our class oso
i mean bio lab..
wasting time right..
take time 4 us to shift here n ther..
biasala..thirst of class..

2dy is the 1st day hving chemist class..
pn.ruzita is our chem teacher
she was talking all the time
bt her topic is out of chemist subj
she oso advise us not to chg classes
mybe she dnw the class 2 be few ppl
or else,lazy 4 teacher to arranged us again..
bt what she talk was right..
n make me still in doubt
either change or not..
btw,changing will be gud 2 me
bt hw if my fren not ther..
cz nt all cn be chg..
i wont think so to make new fren ther
cz hard 4 me to be best fren v them

2nd day in my class

today hving quite a lot of books to be bring..
erm..quite sleepy too..
i sleep in bus oso
1st period is pj
pn syarifah is our pj teacher..
what she talk was interesting
nt not interesting enuf
so,i felt sleepy that time
stay awake n rush my work,after teacher say that
we nid 2 pass up the note..
holy..nearly nt done..
then 4 a several subj after pj is same too
felt sleepy..
except subj after recess
that is physics n english..

hope this 2 weeks will pass asap

totally different..

finally..going 2 form 4 which prove that im 16
reli feel like my 1st time 2 rz when i was in form 1
something like rusa masuk kampung
bt isnt la..cz i hv been in this kampung 4 3 yrs
talked v fren when i reached scul
bell ring..n start finding our class line..
hv our assembly after that..
n nxt was going 2 our class that hv been arranged
lol..1st step to my sc class..
everythng was ok 2dy
except my biology..
gosh,it was sux
n i was sleeping during that..
maybe i hnvt had my interest towards that subj
n i think i wont gonna hd it ever
n mybe will be changing 2 IT class
bt the chances was tooooo low..
btw,i still nid 2 stay in my A class 4 2weeks b4 i chg to others
lol,2 weeks..4 u maybe will be fast
bt me,it was too long to go..
i still nid 2 face my chemist,fizik n bio 4 2 weeks
holy..such subj reli din cross my mind
i reli hope 2 chg..n they will aprrove me
bt since many of them wanna do so
so,it was hard 4 teacher to make their decision
arrange the student to 10 classes was hard 4 of cz
hw bout rearrange it..harder man
teacher shud ask our choice b4 they arrange it right??
so that,its easy 4 them
n 4 us too..
so we wont waste our golden time to the stream we nt interested..
n im still worried about many thing..
chging 2 IT class was totally different from SC classes
so hw m i gonna catch them ltr
n hw bout the books
of cz i nid 2 do my homeworks in this 2 weeks in my current class
this kind of works reli din related to the stream i will go nxt(some subj)
did i nid 2 buy those books again..
wastage of money..
lol.....still in dilemma...