recently

from may..
having exam..
iu day..
mural painting..
my birthday..
musical night..
and so on..

exam was ok..luckily i didn't failed this time
cos having open day tomorrow..
gosh..teacher sure say my everything to my mother
and gma is not here..more worst

iu day was a success..
but after iu day was a sad story
pity us,our int. club..

mural painting from 7 to 10 was a nice event 4 us
although we need to spend our 4 days of holidays in hosp
but it is fun..and yet it connect ppl as he says..
yes,but i connect prob 4 me too..
regret i went 4 it 4 a certain reasons

and on the 9th june,
they having a celebration 4 me..
thx teacher 4 the cake..
bena 4 the celebration,
and vev, jasz, monic, wency, soojing, tzeyuan,
calvin, john, choongsern, jianwei, jason, scott who coming also..

thx bena,the first one wish me happy birthday on the night b4,
li jing,hwee chieh, jasdeep(the one who wish me at 12),
kok keong, vendrick, kok wah, yen hui(the one who call me and send me pic msg)
boon chew, layying(the one send me on 5), monica, teck chuan, erin,
triplets, denice , joanne , gavin, sin ying, sebas, shalini, soo jing, ah tze,
hui yee, etc..
and counted wishes they did on facebook..which roughly had 416
thx everyone..

ntg to comment bout musical night..
damn pissed off that time
waste a lot of money..
and the MN was quite . . .

scul reopen..get results and all that..
and a lot of prob still going on..
mood chg every minutes..

all was damn feeling not nice towards A..
but A was SS all the time
doing all things ownself without asking anyone
while B was really behtahan A
doing all kind of stupid thing to get A back to A's life
A's now is slightly change..but its not complete
and C was damn sad for B
doing something which was really STUPID
but B didn't tell C what actually happened
but C could guess it..
btw.. B just did something very wrong
B and D had planned something so that C dunno what really happened
at last,D tells C..
C plan to ask B,but B is not in the mood..
and C was sad and having a mind crowded with problem
seriously if C tells E whats B did,B really will kena
kao kao from E..cos what B did 4 all thing was TOTALLY WRONG
but,hope C could 4gv B and pretending nothing happen..

pls dnt SS over there..u all can,but dnt talk bout me..
i hv been so tired being someone 4 u all..
help u all ,but at last what i get i i got blamed from u all
cant u all just think what u all did to me??
im so fad up..

and..im not purposely to be emo..
is just i have no reasons to laugh or smile..

ntg to say

yeah..someone agree with me..
you deserve it
although i dunno whats going on
but,from my side
i know who you are

trying to act nothings happen
keep on my way
long to go
try to avoid any mistakes
that could make my way lost
anyway,there is still something
the scar wont gone
and, i will remember

flash back..think of what i did the past

all my silliness
hate myself..
in the other way
i am proud of myself
because i went out from the super stupid world
yet,start feeling my self is stepping in the place
and it was stupid world
but as time past,i hope i will remember of what i get the past
something does not good
and should not hold it until now

i am good in acting..hope none realize what i did now..
nothing much to say
because,all make me speechless

1 more month to go
b4 i leave my grdmom..
sad..
bt sumtime feel wanna shift as fast as i could
bt in other hand,i still nid face my mum..lols
ytd,my mom came n brought us home
i tell her bout i chg class thing
she duno at all
i done all the thing myself
without their knowledge..
bla,bla,bla..n i duno they understand o nt
come bek home,bla the same thing 2 my grdmom
then ask her wether can go v mum to PPD
to do my chg class thing o nt
then she replied me
wat for we go if u noe we did not hv chance??
i was angry,then called my mum ask her to go alone
i duno wat her mood that time
bt maybe is quite angry
+ v my answer i gave her
she more angry
then she ask me,what m i gonna say if i meet them,etc etc..
lol..then,wat m i gonna answer her that time??
i feel so irritating n say
then dnt go la..
then she din reply anything..
quiet ny..then i close it..
2dy,my sis came bek
n ask me wether i rude 2wards mom o nt..
i was blur,then she talk bout call thing
then i oni rmb the things happen on phone ytd
then i xplain to her
"im not rude ok..
mom keep quiet after that,what m i gonna to do??
wait her reply me??
o wait my credit to finish??
u think the credit will stop ther??
credit still flow okay..
+ we had ntg to talk d,
since she feel like dnw go
so i close la.."
lol..wat oso wrong
nw oso duno hw
they all say oni..
ntg work..

GRANDMOTHER

i love her so much
bt nw i gonna leave her alone in house
in a quiet place v no children voice n our caring
i still thinking of hw she gonna past her day without us
we been 2gther 4 16 yrs
bt now i gonna leave her
i dnw to hurt her..she is old..
this is causes of my sis that like 2 argue n fight v her ystrdy
obviously we dnt like ppl talk bout us
bt bcz of my sista's fight her back
my grdmom was angry n ask my sis to call my mom
to pick her up
my mom duno wat action should she take
if she come n pick,she sure kena from her mom(my grdmom)
if she din come..she kena juga...
n 2dy,my mom came n talked v my grdmom
that she wanna take us home....
from my place wher i sitting n hv my lunch
i saw an old woman(my grdmom) taking our towels
that had washed n arranged it
we as the grdchild shud do this
bt she done it..
at house,she always care bout us
n help us do this n that
she wake me up,she serve us breakfast n evry meals
she do housework n evrything
our house not like a house without her
if she go 4 holiday,we will felt sux
n uncomfortable,even house oso mess up
im not independent enuf
i still nid her beside me..
b4 i went to hv my bath..
i saw her back walking to the front
my tears drop n whats that appear on my mind is
hw m i gonna live without this woman..
i oso duno hw we live v our fierce mom
n how could she handle us in daily life
due that she still nid 2 work
problems hving here
bt my mom still stand on her decision
that to bring us ther..

problem

form 4 reli create out many problem 4 me..
bt i think it just 4 early of the year
so,just be patient
btw,teacher is doing a survey
of who wanna take acc n drop bio
if many ppl agreed
a new class will be provided..
b4 i dnw bio,phys n chemist
bt since ytd,my look 2wards bio is totally different
i start to love it..
bt it is just starting..
i hvnt go further
in other hand
i hope they drop phys n chem..n add acct
i would be better
bt,if u ask my opinion
i think all the subj are difficult
included BM n BI
which i tot is KACANG b4
lolss..
now is totally not KACANG 4 me..
i cant even write crap on there
btw,i hv to done a eng essay now
n the teacher who will check my work is pn.fazlily
she still sempat to tell us that
WE ARE FORM 4..N I HOPE 2 SEE A WONDERFUL ESSAY
gosh..hw m i gonna handle it..
just try my best..
hope she wont get disappointed..
lols..

feel like wanna go 4 tuition too
bt which centre shud i go??
which centre is better??
hw m i gonna arranged my transport 2 get ther??
n did my mom will let me go??
cz she seriously will mumble me
if i wan get tt money from her
holy..problem huh.?

this evening
a guy reach my home
wearing a sunglasses
i was get shocked
bcz i dnt even noe this guy
he gt down from his motorcycle
n he just quiet
i asked him
who u wanna find??
he just kept quiet..
omg..rude huh??
then i just turn to my computer
n fb-ing
then turned ther again..
n he called my name..
n say u duno me ah??
i was shocked..
n a lot of ques mark in my mind
then i go over again
n i notice his face look familiar
who is uncle DAVID
im not sure,bcz his hairstyle changed
bcum botak..hahaha
then i just open the door
to let him in
i din called him oso
scare wrong person
n gt malu then...
lolss..

3rd day in the class..
hving discipline talk 2dy..
if i noe i sure wont make my bag heavy
bcz of bringing many text books

exactly like pn.fazlily said
we are like floating class
kip on chging class..
go ther go here..
4 ur opinion,
2dy,we din go into our class oso
i mean bio lab..
wasting time right..
take time 4 us to shift here n ther..
biasala..thirst of class..

2dy is the 1st day hving chemist class..
pn.ruzita is our chem teacher
she was talking all the time
bt her topic is out of chemist subj
she oso advise us not to chg classes
mybe she dnw the class 2 be few ppl
or else,lazy 4 teacher to arranged us again..
bt what she talk was right..
n make me still in doubt
either change or not..
btw,changing will be gud 2 me
bt hw if my fren not ther..
cz nt all cn be chg..
i wont think so to make new fren ther
cz hard 4 me to be best fren v them

2nd day in my class

today hving quite a lot of books to be bring..
erm..quite sleepy too..
i sleep in bus oso
1st period is pj
pn syarifah is our pj teacher..
what she talk was interesting
nt not interesting enuf
so,i felt sleepy that time
stay awake n rush my work,after teacher say that
we nid 2 pass up the note..
holy..nearly nt done..
then 4 a several subj after pj is same too
felt sleepy..
except subj after recess
that is physics n english..

hope this 2 weeks will pass asap